Not Gonna Lie

My friend, Julie recently posted a list of her faults and I thought it was a really great idea! We might as well get it all out there on the table, right? She's right, I happen to look around at all the other "Moms" I know and think they've got it all together in life! Truth be told, they are probably just as stressed out, tired and frustrated as I am.

So here's my list of honest truths about me...

~ I don't like listening to my children argue with each other. I probably raise my voice too often to correct this issue!

~ I hate a lot of vegetables and don't force my kids to try and like them either. So we don't have them as often as we should.

~ I would love to watch TV more than I should. There are just so many good shows out there and I want to keep up with all of them. It's something I'm working on!

~ There are times when I don't really listen to my kids when I know I should be. Just had to apologize to the oldest yesterday when he was telling me a story and I zoned out.

~ My hubby doesn't know how to work the remote (in my opinion) so I'm in control when we watch a show!

~ I get frustrated that my kids don't help out more around the house but it's my own fault for not making them. I can't figure out a great system to get us started. We're tried several times and failed.

~ I don't take the time to snuggle with my hubby as much as I should. I get frustrated when I'm "busy" doing something and he needs some lovin'. He's a very patient man but it frustrates him.

~ I've discovered that I only have to wash my hair every other day. So I straighten it one day and then don't do much with it the next day. Maybe throw a few curls in and pull it back. Not sure if it's being lazy or smart on my part :o)

~ This blog is another area where I struggle. I feel as though I have so much to say and would enjoy writing more but get nervous that someone out there will read it and judge me. Why do I worry so much about what others think? I should be living for only ONE person in my life... my creator!

There are so many more that I could list but I don't want to scare you all away! Thanks for letting me honest and keep it real with ya...

Welcome to the world, Jordan!

He's here and we're all adjusting to life as a family of 6! The older boys are more than excited to have a baby brother. They ran to tell all their friends on our street that he was home and took Daddy's cell phone to show pictures. Jacob however, has had mixed emotions over his new brother. The day we brought him home he asked "Can he go back in Mommy's tummy?" Then later asked "Can't we take him back to the hospital?" Lately he seems to have taken a liking to him though... talking to him and singing when Jordan gets upset.

Here are some pictures of our newest family member...

It's the final countdown...

I'm not sure exactly when it will happen but this little guy is going to be here before long! We are excited about seeing who he looks like. We have three boys that look very similar but each has their own "look" if that's possible! Plus, I wonder what his personality will be like?

Right now I'm at 34 weeks and 3 days so it's still a bit early but things seem to be moving along. My doctor has given me strict orders to rest as much as possible and NO HOUSE WORK! Ugh, if only she knew how much I want to be getting things ready right now.

The crib is ready. We put the bassinet together last week. I packed my bag so I think we're good to go at this point. Now we just have to wait for the big moment :o)

The Laundry Pile

I recently had someone refer to the "day" I do laundry at my house. I had to stop and think back to the good old days when we could do laundry once a week... can I get an Amen? It made me laugh at the thought, really. I don't remember the last time I waited a whole week to do laundry. For those of you who have two or more children, I'm sure you know exactly what I'm talking about.

Maybe it's just boys or children in general but I feel like I'm constantly doing a load or two of laundry. It just piles up before my eyes! Guess it's time I start training those little guys to get in there and help their Mama, huh?

Just think, a couple more months and we're adding one more family member's clothes to the pile... and even though he'll be tiny... he'll sure dirty a ton of tiny clothes!

What a pain... in my head!

I've experience headaches since I was in the 2nd grade. I don't even remember how I made it to the nurses office after I blacked out in the classroom. It was the strangest feeling. That brought about numerous tests and trips to the doctor. I began having to take migraine pills when they would start up.

These migraines are terrible because I typically loose sight, then limbs start to go numb and I just can't focus or concentrate. It can be scary but once you've done it as many times as I have, it's just routine. The worst one I ever had was while I was pregnant with Josh... my ears, eye lids and tongue went numb and I couldn't even speak! I think that one actually freaked the doctor out a little :o)

This pregnancy has caused regular every day headaches but it's also given me two migraines. What a mess. The first one was eased by drinking coke, taking Tylenol and sleeping for several hours. The second one, not so much. After 24 hours of fighting it, Jeff and my Mom convinced me to go to the ER. I wasn't happy but knew I would get the relief I needed. They gave me a shot of morphine and sent me home with Tylenol 3.

Now I'm just praying that they won't return and the rest of this pregnancy will be smooth sailing!

My heart

So I don't know how this is going to come across but it's what's in my heart and I want to say it. Since I've gotten pregnant, everyone has been talking about my having a daughter. Believe me, that's what I desire more than anything else. I've told people before that not having a daughter is like living with a hole in my heart! Growing up I always imagined my life as a Mommy to a couple of daughters. Maybe it was because I only had a sister and the bond we have with our Mom is unbreakable! Maybe it's because I always dreamed about dressing them up and doing their hair. Whatever it is, it's there and it's stronger than it has ever been.

I have a hard time when we're in a store and I see families who have little girls. Especially when they have all little girls and they aren't clean and their hair is a disaster. I'm telling the truth when I say that I've spoken with God about my judgment of those parents. He knows I don't feel it's completely "fair." It's a personal issue that I'm working on!

Right now as I sit just one week away from finding out what we will be blessed with, it's hard. My emotions are high and my heart is on edge. People keep asking "Will you really be okay if it's another boy?" "Do you think you'll have a meltdown on the ultrasound table?" "Are you going to cry depending on what you find out?" The answer is, I don't know! I honestly can't say how that day will be spent. I'm sure it will be full of emotion no matter what the outcome.

God says he gives us the desires of our hearts and I'm trying to trust that. I also know that He is in control and if He knows that another boy is best, then that's what I will have to trust. One day I will understand His reasons but until then I rest in His will for our family and my life!